My Heart Leaves for Kindergarten Tomorrow!

Precious Reed,

Ready or not, here you go...to Kindergarten! I cannot believe that tomorrow your dad and I will be dropping you off to sit at your own little desk, with your name written in Sharpie, in a room filled with the smell of new crayons and sharpened jumbo pencils.

I am going to miss those lazy mornings when we hugged your sister off to school in the back of dad’s car, and you and I sat together on the couch watching cartoons while you munched on a pop-tart. I have become quite spoiled to the fact that there is always a buddy in my backseat when I run errands, and how there was one less spot to put all the grocery bags. It seems that since the day you were born we have been counting down to this day. Saying things like, “Can you believe in three years he’ll go to school?” “Next year at this time he’ll be in school.” “Only two more months until school.”
I have no idea what I will feel tomorrow as I drop you off, and will not see you for seven hours, but I do know that you will crowd my thoughts: What are you doing, how are you feeling, are you having fun, are you using your manners, eating your lunch, missing me?

When I think of all you will learn this year, and how much your mind will grow, I get excited. I laugh that it was just this summer that you were worried about having to write your last name on a golf score card after a tournament, and that you may spell it wrong. In just one full week of school, and writing that sweet name we gave you EVERY-SINGLE-DAY, you will never ask us again if it is spelled correctly.

You crack us up, and most everyone around you. I love how you still hide your tall, slim frame behind my legs when someone compliments you, but you are bold enough to make others around you cackle. I love to see you running in the backyard in your football pads, playing football with 10 imaginary linemen and taking them all down, then fist-pumping in great glory because your team one the game. Your adventurous, uninhibited spirit is full of life. You share this same trait with me. Thank goodness that you have a sister that is quite the opposite. You two make a great team. I find comfort that she has gone before you down that concrete hallway, and that she will take care of you. She loves you so much. I have no doubt that one day you will be jumping off a cliff with little thought, and your sweet sister will be there to check the ropes before you jump.

Remember that our world is far from perfect, and that there will be days when you don’t feel like going to school, someone is mean to you, a teacher doesn’t notice you, or your best friend plays with another. It will all be okay...

Our perfect God is always there for you. He loves you, protects you, comforts you. Though far from perfect, He has entrusted us, your parents, to do the same. You and your sister are two of our most perfect gifts.

As you let go of my hand tomorrow and I take in one last hug, I will remember this sweet moment...remember that camo-print backpack you chose (because you think you are tough) well, I know you are still sweet and love your momma because you let me monogram it.

I love you!

Mom